i'd rather feel pain...

...than nothing at all.

I guess that is the theme for today.

My debit card was declined at the gas station this morning. All the display on the pump said was that the transaction was cancelled and to see the cashier. I was already almost running late and thought that it was probably just a problem with the pump, so I just left in disgust. Then, when I tried to pay for my lunch it was declined again. This time I know it has to actually be my account, as it has happened twice in the same day. At different places.

I go to my parents house after work. There is a little card sitting there from my bank saying that I have overdrawn on my account. On six transactions. They waived the fee on the first one, charged me for the last five. So I go down to my bank, as there was also a check that had come in the mail that I needed to deposit. Talked to the teller. He prints me out a transaction record for the last couple of weeks. It shows that I withdrew on my account a couple of days after the day that they had already sent me the little card for. Five transactions again. Yep. This means that I have fees totaling $330.

Went home and dug a little farther back than the two weeks he had showed me at the bank. Found out that I somehow had missed recording my last car insurance payment so it was indeed my fault that things weren't adding up. This makes me feel wonderful. Figure I may as well still give the customer service number a call and see if there is anything that they can do for me as far as reducing my fees. They say that the most that they can credit my account is $120. So I still end up paying $210 in fees. Means my account is still overdrawn until morning when my paycheck is deposited in there.

Sometimes I just really don't like myself a whole lot. This is probably the time of this year where I have the most expenses to pay on things that are pretty much going to be one time expenses, but they are all coming right now. And then I go and manage to get myself to give my bank 210 bucks just for fun.

But enough griping about money.

Got to go out last night with all the guys that I work with. Had a pretty good time. They got some crazy stories.

And my sister is coming on Monday! Good times.

Tomorrow is Friday. And payday.

Think I am going to go try to find where my dad decided to put all the movies that I still had here and forgot to take with me on Sunday when I was here. Then I am going to go home and throw some laundry in and watch a movie.

Oh, and I think that I can get insurance here in CO for cheaper than what I was paying in MS. Crazy. I was sure that I was going to end up paying more.

It snowed six inches here last night. Had to go change out of the shorts I had on for work today...


music: just the sound of my leg incessantly bouncing on the floor. that's what happens when I have a lot of nervous energy built up. think I may need to go for a run tonight, like my sister told me to do.

i'm diving in

Have you ever had one of those experiences at McDonald's where you have the perfect frech fry? Well, I just had another one of those experiences. And it was good.

Been a while since I have had the perfect fry. The frys that are so hot they almost burn your mouth, but don't, and yet you continue to shove them in your mouth almost as fast as you can just because you know that if you wait just one more minute they are going to be past their peak. And when you get to the bottom of the carton you dig every last bit of fry out and eat it, and then you look around on your shirt to make sure that you didn't miss any tiny little crumb. Mmmm.

Fast food tastes so much better the longer you wait in between times that you have it. And the later in the day that it is. And the longer it has been since you had anything at all to eat.

I like overtime.

I miss iTunes.

"We wait all day for night to come."

We just finished the pre-wire today on the Parade of Homes house that we are doing this year. Looks like it'll be a kinda cool house.

I want softball to start. Just under two weeks until the first practice. Just need to find someone to throw with to get my arm strength up. Need to work on that a lot.

Time for a shower. Definitely a shower.


music: "The First Cut Is The Deepest" -- Sheryl Crow

they are all perfect

Just (well not just, but recently enough) watched The Last Samuri. Again. With the parents, which always makes for an interesting experience. Even with movies they have already seen.

Let me just say, every time I watch this movie it awes me. And this time I think I was picking up on things that I hadn't really noticed before. And I spent several parts of the movie wishing that I was watching it with some of the neat electronic components that I've been reading about in all those magazines lately. I think that it would make for a really incredible movie with some awesome surround sound to pick up all the subtle backround in the quieter scense (sp?) and along with a big, high def, flat screen to just make the picture pop. Guess I'll just have to wait on all that.

But really, if for some reason you haven't seen this movie, rent it, borrow it, check it out of your local public library if they do that, but whatever you do, watch it. It is truely amazing! And it's not just a big, bloody fight. There is a lot of time spent on story and backround.

That being said...I am going home and sleeping. I spent the day working for a couple of hours. Yes, I said that correctly and you're not reading it wrong. I was helping a guy I work with with a side job that he had to do today. He thought it would take a couple of hours this morning. And nine hours later we were done. So I'm going to go home now and try to catch up on some sleep that I somehow keep putting off, despite the fact that I keep waking up tired every morning and staying up later and later every night. But not tonight! Although, I may already be stuck with that just be default. I keep forgetting that the clock on this computer hasn't reset for daylight savings time and it is actually 11:30 right now and not 10:30 like the computer says it is. Grr.

music: Evanescence

the fresh scent of rain

It rained in some parts of town tonight! Looks like just a little bit, but enough for that awesome smell that comes after springtime rain. And it's nice and cool outside right now. Perfect for cruising with the windows half down and the heater blowing just a tiny bit on the floor. Nice. Very nice.

I think that usin laquer thinner for three hours straight, without wearing a mask, might not be the best idea that I ever had. Kinda have a headache now...

Sometimes country music and pickup trucks just go together.

And warm, sunny days.

Makes it hard to go back to work after lunch break.

Man, I could go for a Johnny Cash song right about now.

Or Willy. Willy would be about perfect.

Stayed up till sometime close to one in the a.m. last night watching Stranger Than Fiction. (Yes, I know I said that I was going to go home and read, but movies count as reading. Well, some of them do.) Awesome movie. I think I need to watch it a couple more times to be sure it sticks, but I think I might have to put it in my top ten favorites. If you haven't seen it, see it. Great movie! I had no problem at all staying awake to watch it. And I was really tired when I started it. Definitely didn't want to (hmm, just killed a big 'ol spider that was crawling across the desk) get out of bed this morning, but it was well worth it.

And speaking of being tired... I've been home for all of ten minutes tonight since I got off work, so I think I'm going to head that way and try to get some sleep.


music: a plethora of country!

one thing in common

I keep forgetting that I saw "300" this weekend. And then I remember. And get all excited all over again! Such an awesome movie. Saw it with a couple of my buddies and we all walked out of there saying that we needed to start working out. Not sure about them, but it has definitely helped me remember to actually do at least my crunches and push ups a couple times a day. And I sorta forced myself to go play basketball tonight even though I was tired and didn't feel like starting to play. But I did and it was good and fun. And tireing. Pretty sure a few crunches aren't ever going to make me look like those guys, or fight like them (which was awesome!), but at least I have some motivation now.

"The past is only the future with the lights on."

Started the pre-wire for a Parade of Homes house that we are doing. Sort of a cool house. Just not a real big fan of the part of "town" that it's in, I guess. On the way back to the house from lunch I thought that if I lived out there that I would probably be depressed all the time just because it was so far from everything. And I like my privacy and all, and am not necessarily a fan of big cities as such, but still. If you're going to live by a big city, you may as well live close enough to enjoy what it has to offer other than an hout and a half commute each way every day. Specially when you're paying "from $200's to custom."

Going to go home and read now. And I think I'm going to give myself a night off from the geeky technical mags and just read. Purely for fun. Except for the fact that it's Poe, and he's kinda freaky.


music: more random radioness

i'll sing these songs

Kicked the bucket tonight. Well, a bucket. And I more actually almost fell into it and just happened to kick it with my foot than really, truely kicked it.

Finally filled out my brackets today for the tourney. Looks like I have North Carolina winning the whole thing, so we'll see how that goes... I realized a day or so ago that the last couple of years I have been making my choices about who wins games based on outdated info. See, I haven't actually had time to watch much college ball for the last few years. Usually only watch two, maybe three games a season before the tourney. Not much to base any picks on really. So when I have to fill out my brackets, instead of choosing based on mascots, I pull up my "knowledge" of the teams that I likes or were good like ten years ago when I actually had time to watch at least two or three games a week. And things have changed a little in the last ten years...

And all that "giddyness" that was talked about. Pretty much gone today. But that's ok. Probably a good thing actually. No reason it couldn't come back though.


music: some random song on the radio

i hear in my mind all this music

So I 've been in a pretty good mood lately, and I can't really pin it on anything in particular. And that kinda puzzles me. Granted, you catch me at certain times, I'm still gonna want to throw something at you. Probably won't. But don't push it. But for the most part it's a good mood I find myself in. Almost giddy at times. Though I hide the giddyness to those around. Wouldn't want people to see me like that. Could be somewhat traumatic(sp?) for them.

Just had a random thought that may explain... Perhaps it is for lack of any girl, or even thought of one, in my life right now. I don't think that this is the true answer, but it could be a partial. Cause usually when there is a total absence I am distraught about that fact, and then when there is a crush, well that should explain itself. But maybe I've just come into a new place in life where everything is taking on different characteristics than normal. Nah. Most likely now that I have actually realized this fact I'll start to be bothered by it. Sometimes my brain makes me wonder...

For the sheer number of typing classes I've had to take in my life, one would think that I could type a little better than I actually do.

Wore shorts to work today! It was an absolutely gorgeous day outside!

Bacon is definitely in the top ten of best foods ever made.

Is "sarcasmic" a word?


music: "Fidelity" -- Regina Spektor (and it truely is just in my mind)

spectrum

Tummy is pleasantly full.

Softball bag has been pulled out of parent's garage and is coming home with me today.

Favorite softball bat has been carried around parent's house and spent a good deal of time out in the kitchen getting reaquainted with my hands while boring my mother with talk of the upcoming softball season. Softball cleats have been inspected and, unfortunately for them, it has been decided that they need to be retired and a new pair gotten. Thankfully for me, softball anything is something that I actually enjoy shopping for, so shouldn't be a problem getting a new pair.

Had our first flag football game on Saturday. Lost. But we played a lot better than I thought we would, and I had a lot more fun playing and watching that I thought I would. It was really a fun time. And we probably could've beaten these guys if it hadn't been our first game ever. So that is encouraging too.

And our volleyball games on Friday night were a blast too! Actually had to play hard the whole time. We still won 2 out of 3, but it was the first week I can remember this season that I broke a good sweat playing. Cause I had to. And I got to dive for a ball too. That's always fun!

I am soooo ready for softball to start!!!

This is the definitely the busiest I have ever been with playing sports myself, and I must say, right at the moment I'm kinda giddy with it all. Too bad softball doesn't actually start until sometime in May. (sister, you better bring your glove when you come visit in April, cause I'm gonna need to throw a ball at something by then for sure!)


music: more nonsense from the parent's computer...

strangeness

Over at the parents house right now. Just cut my hair and showered. Put on the clothes that I brought along for mny volleyball game later tonight. Sat down at my dad's computer. While waiting for my e-mail to appear over the dial-up (this can take a while at times) I saw a rather old picture sitting on his desk of my sister and me. Weird thing is, I'm wearing the exact same shirt. The picture is from December of 1994. That's been a while ago now. Can't go wrong with the classics though.

Some delayed news of happieness. On Monday I got to work ridiculously early, due to the fact that I didn't know how long it was going to take from my new place, so I had some time on my hands. So I decided to dig a little for my ring that I had dropped in there several weeks before. And I found it! Don't know how many times I had tried to play with it during those weeks only to find it missing from my fingers. Those were sad times. But know it's back and all is right in the world. Well, almost.

Also, more delayed goodness. Last weekend I was told "you're hot" by a total stranger. Not sure how much I trust her opinion, but it's nice to hear every so often.

Was this close to going to see 300 Thursday night at midnight. Probably should've gone, but decided to just stay home and watch a movie that the new roomies were watching instead. But I am going to go see that one soon. Looks pretty sweet!


music: "Star Wars Theme" -- The London Philharmonic Orchestra (definitely time to watch the original trilogy again. been waaayyyyyyy too long!)

read my mind

So many decisions to make. And they all involve money. Or, more accurately, the lack thereof.

Finally made a little shelf thingy tonight. I had scavanged some new drawers out of a kitchen cabinet, oh sometime last fall, and had intended to make some basic storage shelves out of them. So the drawers have just been sitting around for months now, just waiting for me to put them to use. And tonight I finally just did it. It I hadn't bought clamps to use adn a whole box of screws, it would have cost me less than $5 to make. Still wasn't too expensive at all after the other stuff that I did buy. And clamps are a must have anyway, should've bought some a long time ago.

Found out today that I need to put on some wieght if I want to be able to wear the dual pouch, 23 pocket tool belt that I want to get.

I think I might start to carry a pencil around with me in my hat at all times. Think it might come in handy.

I want to buy a house to fix up and sell. Not so much for any other reason than that I think I would enjoy having a project like that to work on every night after work. Think it would be fun.

I've been reading a home theatre magazine that we get at work. Most of the stuff in there is way over my head, but I have managed to retain a little bit from it, which is more than I thought I would when I started it. Lots of cool, expensive stuff in there.

I would kill for a good peanut butter sandwich right now.


music: "I Could Have Danced All Night" -- Audrey Hepburn

failed attempts

So Friday I got home from work and packed up a load of stuff in my truck and took it over to the new place I am living. Drove to new place and unloaded load. Went to volleyball games. Played volleyball. Won. Stood in fairly cold parking lot, in shorts, for at least half an hour talking after the volleyball games making plans for Saturday mid-morning. Drove home. Packed up rest of stuff. Had craving for beverage. Put "presentable" clothes on. Drove to 7-Eleven. Got milk, cookies, Gatorade, and an energy drink for the morning. Went home. Got into bed. Ate cookies and drank milk. Had some Gatorade. Went to sleep.

Saturday: Woke up about 6:30. Showered. Loaded up my truck. Drove to new place and unloaded truck. Drove back to old place. Adam arrived to help. Loaded both vehichles. Took last of stuff to new place and unloaded it. Went to Jimmy's for some guy time while all their wives were at a baby shower. Grilled some brats. Ate brats and brownies and whatever else we could manage to lay our hands on. Went to Adams to help paint their soon to be babies room. Started painting. Took break to let trim dry. Went to see Wild Hogs. (pretty funny movie) Went back to Adam's and finished painting while listening to some crazy concerts on PBS's fund raising drive. Went home, to the new place!! Found my sheets. Put them on my bed. Turned on my cd player and went to sleep.

I'll spare ou the details of Sunday. Pretty much have just eaten too much today. But it was oh so good! And I am finally done and gone with the old place for good. I did offer to paint there whenever they were ready to do that. But I figure if I can make some money...got to do that where I can, right? And the guy does own a whole lot of properties...

I noticed my copy of MB20's Mad Season cd while I was flipping through my cds the other day and decided to listen to it. Cause for some reason I hadn't ever decided to put it onto my computer so I hadn't really heard any of it for quite a long time now. And I remember specifically NOT putting it on there for a reason, which I really don't know why now. But I really have been enjoying it. Wish I hadn't banished it for the last couple of years.

I think I may be getting dangerously close to becoming addicted to energy drinks.

This is the first time that I can remember that I have wieghed less than 170 lbs.

I think my new room is almost twice the size of the last one. I didn't notice this fact until I had my huge double pillow topped queen sized bed put in there and it didn't take up the entire room anymore. I think I am going to enjoy this.


music: some classical shtuff on the radio. not the greatest, but it keeps the ears occupied. at least there's a radio out here in the garage now. that's exciting.